I have had many ups and downs in my life. Sleeping rough, being attacked, divorce, deaths, sexual abuse and the like. I have often thought about telling my story, although I am sure many would not believe half of it.
Recently however, with the death of my brother by his own hand, I have come to realise that it is up to me to make things happen. Large and small events may play a part in our futures but, it is up to us to try and put events into play that will help.
We sit around and let things happen to us much of the time. In fact, at one point in my life, I stated that all i would do was sit back and let life happen around me, with myself ebbing and flowing with its tide.
But, nothing happens when you do that. Compromise is all very well and good but surely full on life is better.
I am very lucky that I have done a good many things I set out to do when I ran away from home many years ago. I have also done many things I would never have dreamed of and would not want to repeat. But, now I want to aim my future. Take a hold of it and make it more what I thought it would be when a small child looking forward.
Although I never will be an astronaut, a princess or a vet, I can be the best of whatever I end up being as I grow older.
My son introduced me to Dean Wesley Smith. He wrote a couple dozen Star Trek novels, the only two original Men in Black novels, Spider-Man and X-Men novels, plus novels set in gaming and television worlds. He does workshops and has a blog I just linked to where he offers tips and advice. He also writes constantly. He adds the number of words he writes and keeps a tally.
Shaun submitted that this may be a good idea for me to start. Every day adding to my blog with … well, anything that I am thinking basically and also writing more stories.
I have written many stories in the past and even 3/4 of a book but, when I start proofreading them they end up scrapped so, instead, it may be a good idea to NOT proofread but, instead, write and be dammed….so to speak
If Julian, my brother, taught me anything, it was that you have to work and work at your craft. He spent all his early years drawing, learning about anatomy etc. He was the most talented person I know and he liked my ship paintings…MINE! I mean, this guy could paint whatever he put his mind to and I so looked up to him and he liked MY paintings. So, instead of wasting any more of my life, I am going to put my work on fast track, learn more about oils and colour, hone my craft, sketch, write and set up my magazine site as I want it and have been meaning to do for a couple of years.
Who knows, it may end up down the pan,like many other things have in my life but, perhaps, just perhaps, this is the beginning of a new saga.
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