I seem to have no patience with anyone at present since Jules’ death. Idiots I put up with in the past have been removed from my Facebook page. My world has shrunk to just people I wish to associate with in some way.
I know it is a ‘side effect’ of the past couple of weeks and it may change but, for now, I feel unable to meet new people, explain why, what, who and where………………………….
But, on the other hand, my business is changing direction and, plans thought about for a year now going into effect. My written words are flowing and my art muse is working overtime. The fact I can do hardly anything yet because of my broken finger is not stopping me and I am even knitting a house one and a half handed. (tell you later).
Robin is buying me sweets and all those things I should not be eating. He has painted the walls in bright green for me in the hall and even said yes to my door murals I want to put on when I can do so. He even came home today with one of my favourite things, a rocking horse…. albeit one for the mantelpiece and not a full grown one.
I feel like I should be bereft and laying in a sea of misery but, instead, I can feel Julian flowing through me making me want to surround myself with bright colours, art, words, poetry
I hope I retain this feeling and it is not just a moment
TOTAL NEW WORDS 2014
6 MONTHLY TOTAL